A Bipolar Trap Door By Allison Reed I'm stumbling through a hall of my nightmare struggling to find my way as the darkness grows until I'm blind with no sense but to go forward and my despite my cautious steps and slow movement I take one step and fall straight down a blatant trap door. … Continue reading The Bipolar Trap Door
Today's post is reasons to stay alive I'm shocked at how easy it was for me to write this list because just two months ago if you had asked me I would have had an easier time writing a list of reasons not to stay alive then to stay alive so to anybody who is at that point, I'm living proof that you can survive. Three years ago I almost succeeded at killing myself. I had such a strong desire to die that I researched it for weeks and planned and almost succeeded and now I am truly grateful to be alive. It's been a merry go round of extreme lows and highs but I can cope with the extreme lows, and appreciate the highs.
Welcome to my blog. Seems depressing doesn't? Well I suffer from severe depressive disorder, crippling anxiety, drug addiction, and have attempted suicide. I am not a victim of this though. I am a survivor. I write to cope with life. I've always had a hard time dealing with life and I've always used writing to … Continue reading Who Am I?
Instead of the post I had worked on to post for today which is on music as a form of therapy, I somehow ended up with nothing on the page after I posted it. So I decided to write about me, briefly, my early experience with the mental health system, my addiction that began in high school and I still struggle with, my continuous struggle with depression. Overall, I discuss feeling depressed and out of place around 13 and tried various coping mechanisms(self harm, compulsive exercise, eating disorders, but once I tried that first drink and did that first drug I thought I had found it! The cure to my depression. The end to my loneliness and isolation. Now I'm in recovery and hope to one day be a part of research that has an impact on the field of mental illness.
So my last post I went into my history with psychiatric units discussing both the positive and negative aspects of my hospital experiences Every hospital I went to fit into two categories: positive or negative. With the exception of one hospital that fit into both categories, the experience had positive aspects and negative one's as … Continue reading I Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest: Personal Experience In Psych Wards Page 2/2
My Stay At Mental Hospitals Since this is a blog about mental illness, I thought I'd write about something that most of us with a mental illness have experienced. A stay at some sort of psychiatric hospital. I've been in and out of mental health units since I was seventeen. (I'm now twenty-five). The … Continue reading I Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest: Personal Experience In Psych Wards Page 1/2